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julyfirst @ 2005-07-31T12:26:00

2005-07-31T19:28:18Z

this journal is done.

this journal is new. shakedoctor

julyfirst @ 2005-06-12T00:38:00

2005-06-12T07:45:18Z

today, at the mall, a lady was selling cats in a box. it was capitol, to quote the "new yen."

i saw her twice. she had piercing eyes. it was sort of poetic.

there were also a lot of "don't smoke, you will die a terrible death with brain eating zombies eating your brains and using your shoes for christmas decorations" signs all over the mall. you know the ones made by third graders? they were fantastic.

i just had the funniest conversation with carrie. it involved corn, republicans, and how at midnight everything is hilarious.

my life has become significantly better in the past week. overcoming my habits of not being able to overcome myself? yes. and that is as complicated as it sounds.

julyfirst @ 2005-05-02T18:59:00

2005-05-03T02:36:35Z

the english ap test today was today. i dont know, i think i probably will get a 3, maybe a 4? but i don't want to get my hopes up. i wanted a 5. i sat behind duy, it's good luck to sit around asians.

yeahhhh.

julyfirst @ 2005-03-25T18:58:00

2005-03-26T03:09:49Z

whaddup, home fries.

i seem to have been suffering from a case of holleritus. containing the root words holler and itus meaning the lack of being able to be holler.

if you tell me that is purely fiction i'll call you a booger head.

today was multi-cultural day at school... again i find myself wondering why i do not have enough courage to back up my junk in the trunk to morning musume songs.

or atleast ludacris.

julyfirst @ 2005-03-13T00:47:00

2005-03-13T08:50:01Z

i have a fun story.

there is a middle aged bald man sitting at a library computer viewing a website, as displayed by the massive (no pun intended) title "m3n 4 53x n0w"

it wasn't l33ted up like that, but who knows what crazies would come here if i actually wrote that. :)

julyfirst @ 2005-03-07T18:36:00

2005-03-08T02:42:56Z

we have a real life fob at our school now. he's a freshman. the emo kids sprayed his crotch with a water bottle. by emo i mean the kids with pre-torn hollister pants and studded belts. he just laughed, he's really polite in a sort of poetic way.

...what?
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julyfirst @ 2005-02-09T21:45:00

2005-02-10T06:07:46Z

my word of wisdom for the day:

anyone that will willingly sing to ashlee simpson with you is a person to be cherished.

julyfirst @ 2005-02-08T15:03:00

2005-02-08T23:03:19Z

i'm such an adolescent boy. my knees are always bruised and so is my ego.

i can never really fall asleep in class. i'm terrible at taking any form of criticism.

julyfirst @ 2005-02-04T17:09:00

2005-02-05T01:39:44Z

i want to disco.

julyfirst @ 2005-02-01T14:50:00

2005-02-01T22:59:16Z

"with bright costumes and elephants."

dude, the winnie the pooh movie doesn't come out for like two weeks. for reals, that makes me sad. i'm hardcore, twinkies!

julyfirst @ 2005-01-12T15:27:00

2005-01-12T23:44:14Z

at first i just blew it off. but it's getting to me now.

don't say hi to me in the hall after you speak badly about me when you think i'm not listening. i'm always listening. if you knew anything about me, if you were as good of a friend to me as you think you are, you'd know that i'm always listening.

don't try to corner me and yell to the world that i am rude and that "i shouldn't treat my friends this way." i'm rude? i'm treating my friends badly? hardly. you're the ones that spoke badly of me to my face in the first place. but i wont be a hypocrite, i've talked about you two as well. and i'm willing to bet it's not the first time you've both talked about me.

but i've confided in both of you in the past. even though i always subconciously realized your extreme selfishness, i have trusted you. i've not trusted you to always be there for me, but maybe to just accept me as who i am. i was your friend. i dissaprove of what you do in your life, but i only talk about it so that i can try and make some sense of it. when i've talked about her relationships, it's been because i wanted to help her, not harm her.

i think what hurts the most is that you laughed. you lauged at what you were saying about me.

and that kills me.

julyfirst @ 2004-12-08T14:41:00

2004-12-08T22:52:03Z

it's been on of those days where you are pretty sure in the last twenty-four hours you have become a foreign exchange student. you don't speak the language and certaintly don't know how to "bling."

you also spend most of the day wishing that your best friend lived next door to you. any of the houses would do, the mormon's, the lesbians, or the KKK affiliates. well, maybe not the KKK houses, after all your best friend is indeed asian and that can't make for good vibes.

and any kindness you see people exerting makes you want to cry because you realize there is so little thoughtfulness left in the world. you also feel left out of most everything, but that could just be the result of the rainy weather.

and if my english teacher read this, she'd probably tell me that i was using the word "you" in the wrong way.

julyfirst @ 2004-10-24T09:30:00

2004-10-24T16:42:19Z

"MELBOURNE, Australia - Koalas are considered in danger of extinction in parts of Australia, but in one southern state authorities plan to implant 2,000 of the furry marsupials with contraceptives to control their numbers."

i'm never looking for another physics article again.

julyfirst @ 2004-09-23T16:19:00

2004-09-23T23:31:49Z

in the profound words of jacqueline nguyen:

"whatevs."

julyfirst @ 2004-09-01T14:32:00

2004-09-01T21:33:32Z

"for reals. ap work."

-piggy nguyen

julyfirst @ 2004-08-29T12:33:00

2004-08-29T19:57:14Z

piggy, i keep having these dreams that i'm jungsuh. i have them every night and they seem to pick up where they left off. only i look like myself.

i've got to stop falling asleep while lizzy mcguire is on my tv. it does things to you.

julyfirst @ 2004-08-28T11:16:00

2004-08-28T18:19:48Z

0 US History AP
1 English III AP
2 Spanish IV AP
3 Psychology/Sociology
4 Physics
5 PCM III Math
6 open

jump.

2004-08-23T21:17:12Z

i'm difficult.

songjoo, junsuh, seriously, even miss tae mirah, we miss you.

but not yoori. well, maybe just a little.

julyfirst @ 2004-08-21T12:56:00

2004-08-21T19:57:53Z

yesterday, friday, i learned how to assemble things involving wood and nails. the new entry way table? yes!

i cleaned a lot, too.

i did ap work.

today?

i'm doing ap work because i'm so far behind i'm going to throw myself out of a window and go into hiding.

anyone anyone

2004-08-19T05:59:26Z

i'm worried. anxious. nervous.

you nose, like that one dashboard song.

emu. not emo.

today was fun. swimming is fun. being with kayla is fun.

i miss watching Stairway to Heaven. i am dying to finish watching the series. songjoo forever. songy and jungy. <3

don't make me have to start role playing that i'm jungy, sbc tv korea, DON'T MAKE ME! because i've never role played.. but i'm so close to losing my mind I JUST MIGHT HAVE TO.

:)

2004-08-18T07:59:41Z

if you order things online from delias, you get free stuff.

like tampons, deodorant, and gum.

i only use one thing out of all of those, being the gum. maybe i'll auction the others. ahahahha.

well, it's 1am, and tomorrow i'm going out for an adventure with kayrah, so i must shreep.

inori wo

2004-08-17T09:34:07Z

i don't know what it is about this remix, but inspires me to go sing on top of a tree or something. the title of the song is so misleading.

ayumi, where would we be without your great mind?!

backyard bowling

2004-08-16T08:18:13Z

vii.

"i saw many kinds of flowers
lined up in front of the flowershop.
everyone has their favorite kinds but all of them are pretty.
without competing to see which was the best among them,
they were standing straight up proudly inside the bucket.
so why then do we humans have to compare ourselves to one another?
even though each and every person is different,
why do we want to be number one?
yes we are each..

a flower unlike any other in the world
and each and everyone of us
carries a different seed
we should focus all our efforts
on trying to make that flower bloom"

ps. i had a fantastic night. sb power. i love you, josh! :)

i thought that this song by SMAP was really powerful and has a great meaning. i remember this was one of my first j-pop songs.. i wish more jpop artists still had this type of motivational and meaningful songs as they did three years ago.

i keep hearing piggy singing "da pump" songs in my head. it's brilliant!

♥

quarters in the dryer

2004-08-15T05:38:56Z

vi.

"if just one of your wishes could come true,
if just one of your wishes could come true,
what would you wish for?
what would you wish for, here, under this sky?

if there were something i could give to you,
if there were something i could give to you,
it would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
yes, my unchanging, certain thoughts.
right here."

ps. i'm dead scared. i'm worried. it feels like everything is out of my hands.

♥

such sunshine

2004-08-14T06:08:04Z

v.

"goes to the supermarket with no makeup
rides the train with no makeup
takes purikura with no makeup
'how nice to be young…'
'shoot!'"

ps. if everytime you start to do ap work you start wanting to cry and watch full house, you're probably just hiding from the fact that you have to do it, do it well, and that the olsen twins get paid more money then you'll ever see in your life everytime a re-run is played!

maybe it's just me, but lately i keep feeling like i'm getting on everyone's nerves. i'm sure everyone probably feels like this sometimes, so i'm trying to stay positive and optimistic that i'm not annoying everyone like a sheep under warm boivian sun.. i'm just scared that the people closest to me are going to get annoyed by me. please, tell me if i get like this if you think that i am.

other then my worrying taking over my brain, today was a good day. time spent with my wonderful josh [ i love you :) ], mexican food, phone with piggy, my friend bringing me back corn from some farming state! it's good to be here and smiling!

♥